I Guess I'm Staying After All

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 So, remember when I said I finally sent my resignation letter?

Well, plot twist.

I'm staying.

Yeah, I know.

After all those sleepless nights, overthinking, and finally building up the courage to send that letter, I ended up withdrawing it.

And tbh, I have mixed feelings about it.

When I first decided to resign, I genuinely thought I couldn't handle everything anymore. The workload, the pressure, the responsibilities, it was getting too much for me.

But leaving wasn't as simple as I thought.

There was the contract penalty, the financial situation, and the reality that I didn't really have enough savings to just walk away.

I had a conversation with my operations manager, and after thinking about everything, I decided to stay.

Not because everything suddenly became perfect.

Not because all my problems disappeared.

But because sometimes you have to make decisions based on what you can realistically handle, not just what you wish you could do.

And I guess that's what happened.

I'm still tired sometimes. There are still things I wish were different. But at least now there's a possibility of reducing my workload and making things a little more manageable.

I don't know whether staying is the right decision.

Maybe future me will be grateful.

Or maybe future me will look back and wonder why I didn't leave earlier.

Who knows?

For now, I'm just trying to make the best out of the situation.

Life doesn't always go according to plan.

Apparently, neither does my resignation.

Damn.

Location: Brunei

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